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so true, bestie.
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my friend told me he wanted to die, I was like "so true, bestie"
he said he was gonna drink himself to death, I was like "oh mood, bestie"
that's probably not what he needed, but I felt the same way as he did
I just hope that he sticks it out for longer than me
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wtf
02:14
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back in our 20s we had time a plenty, and no-one could tell us shit
stood in your hallway drinking a beer and planning all our gigs
leave you at 1 in the morning and somehow find my way home pissed
truthfully, i'm not sure I ever wanted anymore than this
and I just find it difficult to come to terms with how things are
because the truth is, honestly, I never thought i'd get this far
I don't really wanna die but still, what the fuck is this?
every single day I feel like I wanna call it quits
now all my friends are leaving again and i've had to change as well
doing my best not to stress and attempting to take some care of myself
some days I still day drink and that's my goddamn right
and if you think it's a waste of money, you're godddamn right
and I just find it difficult to come to terms with how things are
because the truth is, honestly, I never thought i'd get this far
I don't really wanna die but still, what the fuck is this?
every single day I feel like I wanna call it quits
I don't really wanna die but still, what the fuck is this?
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STORAGE LOW: free up some space, get rid of some shit you won't miss
throw it into the bin with the rest and leave it to rot in the abyss
well, my brain is an overstuffed iPhone 6
and soon it's gonna break, and won't get fixed
it'd be better if i just forgot and let some of the old stuff go
if I do that, I can never go back, and that really bothers me tho
but if I don't, one day the battery will blow
God help who is there when it explodes
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utilities not included
01:21
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found out recently my freezer's broken down
I didn't even notice, now i'm throwing all this frozen food out
how the fuck did I not notice the smell
guess it's just another thing that i will have to do without
because i'm not willing to sacrifice my pleasures
am i going to be like this forever?
I'm waking up again in a bed that feels like a mess
it's too hard to change the sheets, i think i might be depressed
who cares about cleaning up when nobody's around?
i'm trying to give a fuck about caring about myself
but i can't see the point, what can I say
i'm lucky to even see another day
so i'll try to keep myself clean and i'll try not to drink
i'll fuck it up and leave the dirty dishes in the sink
the mental mess is mounting up and i am on the brink
i'll try to write another song to help me not to think
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Reflex
02:06
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i'm filling the hole with the drinks on a discount
nobody knows what we're so pissed off about
we're all messes, functioning depressives
which of us will go first before we get the message?
i dont wanna die but i still don't enjoy this
they told me i'd get old but i didn't believe it
now my friends own property
im just trying to get drinks for free
whats wrong with me?
we used to smoke cigs n dance to some bullshit
one day i woke up and you had kids
i'm stuck in the past and im always comparing
and when i go outside I just feel people staring
I remember us sitting there, you starting to cry
you said you would miss me with tears in your eyes
life's not the same now it sucks, but time flies
we got wasted and had some good times
and then it just never got better
I get why you moved on but i could never
I dont wanna do shots, they give me a headache
but all my memories revolve around heartache
it's not even that i want to go back
at this point im basically just running on train tracks
and soon the trains gonna hit me
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last sign in:
02:30
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some days i'll randomly sit and remember about you
you were in a bad place when we last talked, but i was too
i was too busy drinking to even think about your life
then one day you vanished and I barely realised
for all i know you could be dead and i would have no way to know
it's fucking weird to me that we could have once been so close
you showed me bands, and i ended up goin to their shows
I wish you could have been there with me in the front row
if we still spoke, i could play you covers all the time
you once said you liked my voice, but i dunno why
i wish you could see me playing music, and trying to live my life
but mainly i just wish i knew if you were even still alive
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biohazard
02:18
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i'm a zombie, i am haggard, im a walking biohazard
I will grab you and i'll bite you, gonna kill all of you bastards
ingesting poison on a daily basis, toxic both inside and out
better hope you find the shotgun before i open my mouth
so i'll take the g-virus sample and inject it in my ribs
i'd turn into an even worse abomination than this
better keep your distance or else i might get a taste
you can't stop me even with a rocket to the fucking face
there are parts inside of me that are bleeding and they're rotting
and there's memories of who i once was I have just forgotten
the city is on fire and i'm running with the hordes
munching on those motherfuckers just because i'm bored
so i'll take the g-virus sample and inject it in my ribs
i'd turn into an even worse abomination than this
better keep your distance or else i might get a taste
you can't stop me even with a rocket to the fucking face
but zombies get fed and zombies don't have to pay rent
some days i'd rather be undead
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can someone please tell me why Snoop Dogg is advertising Mark Zuckerberg's AI?
why do we live in a world where that's a sentence that I can write?
this dystopia has gone too far, and I don't think it's funny
i'm not laughing anymore and I ain't got no fucking money
and I know a computer could sing this song much better than me
soon the human beings will be the ones with RNG
so please do me a favour when you have to bury me:
tell them i'm going back to MySpace
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try youtube premium
03:06
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I never got to finish Squid game
because Netflix took away the ability to share accounts
with friends who you maybe know
but now they've realised and they're like "No."
I'm sure Netflix needs the money more than I need my money
I'm sure Netflix needs the money more than I need my money
Amazon Prime wants me to pay the fine
to watch a show about living James Bond's life
Disney+ has it's claws in us
but i'm not nostalgic for the Lion King stuff
I guess Disney needs the money more than I need my money
I guess Disney needs the money more than I need my money
and now YouTube is banning adblock to get you to pay
just add it to your subscriptions and it'll be okay
I'm sure YouTube needs the money, give them all your fucking money
I'm sure YouTube needs the money, give them all your fucking money
give them all your fucking money, give them all your fucking money
give them all your fucking money, give them all your fucking money
give them all your fucking money, give them all your fucking money
give them all your fucking money.
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8-4
02:06
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i feel like shit
walking through the morning mist
last night i got pissed
knowing i was on the morning shift
and so i'm racing, full of hatred
walking into the newsagents
i need some cigarettes or else i dont think i can take this
well hey, things aren't great
the manager does not like my face
and i know that she can't wait
to put me in my place
i wanna shout and walk out
and say "fuck you and everyone you care about"
but im not brave enough to deal with the fallout
why the fuck am i here in the first place?
why the fuck am i here in the first place?
how did i get trapped inside this cage?
why the fuck am i here in the first place?
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happiness spiral
02:41
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I got a bed and I rent a home
I should be happy, yeah, i know
I aint got much furniture or many clean clothes
got everything i need
at least technically
am i drowning sorrows or are they drowning me?
just one more is sure to make me feel high
even if it doesn't, it's worth a try
aw shit, here we go again
we'll drink until we're happy, or we'll drink until we're dead
aw shit, here we go again
we'll drink until we're happy, or we'll drink until we're dead
I need to change
I need to re-arrange
i'm disregarding all the warnings from my brain
but you don't need to tell me
to be grateful to be fit and healthy
cause real life is getting way too overwhelming
so if you're happy, well good for you
but if you aint, then you know what to do
aw shit, here we go again
we'll drink until we're happy, or we'll drink until we're dead
aw shit, here we go again
we'll drink until we're happy, or we'll drink until we're dead
aw shit, here we go again
we'll drink until we're happy, or we'll drink until we're dead
aw shit, here we go again
we'll drink until we're happy, or we'll drink until we're dead
drink until we're happy, or we'll drink until we're dead
we'll drink until we're happy, or we'll drink until we're dead
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